long time coming

A few years back, maybe 4 or 5, there was a major thing happening in my life and the lives of my peers.  We were being changed, on the inside.  Dreams were born and futures were setup.  We all interpreted these things in our own little ways and were very legitimately inspired.  GOD was on the move in our generation, in our community, in our church, in our lives.

It has been a long time coming around again to the dreams that have grown dry and cracked.  Our hearts have wandered, hardened, broken, and now melted under the pressures of life and society and purpose.  We have lost our purpose almost completely.  Imagine a flame dimming and almost flickering out.  That’s how I’ve seen what’s been happening.

God spoke to our hearts in His language.  It can be foreign to our hearts like broken English.  We pickup subtle ideas and abstract details but miss the conversation and the big picture.  God speaks God and we hear in human.  I never imagined my life how it is.  My life is far more than I could ask for.  4 years ago I had it planned out.  I heard what God was saying and I interpreted what God said and had an imagination to think of what God meant.  I didn’t do it this way intentionally.  I’ve grown so much over the past few years, been exposed to so many humbling experiences and teaching moments.  I’ve been smashed, crushed.  I’ve fallen harder than I’ve ever fallen. I’ve had to grow up faster than I would have ever wanted to.  I’ve had the best 4 years of my life, but the whole point of writing this blog at all is that the best part is yet to come.  I don’t even know what that means. What does that look like? I don’t know.  I don’t want to imagine everything right now.

Things are happening again in a way that resembles the previous time in my life.  I feel anticipation like I have never felt.  Something is churning on the inside and I know I’m not the only one.  The kingdom of God has been revealed to my heart’s eyes and the life that we have being a part of that Kingdom is so powerful if we just tap in.  Purpose is overwhelming me in my life right now.  Relevance and effectiveness are eating away at me. There has to be a purpose, what is this all for?  I can’t fail anymore.  This can’t happen like before. This is fresh and new and vibrant and breathing.  It’s terrifying and exhilarating, inspiring and overwhelming all at the same time.  It’s a tug on my heart. It’s a fire that is getting out of hand.  Something has to give. We have to give in to God’s call. What does it matter how we feel, or what we want.  We have to move into that place where we have communion with the Father.  A sacred romance.  God is calling us to Him. Time is short. We are wasting our giftings. We are throwing out our resources. We are rejecting His love.  It’s time to embrace God, God’s will, and do it God’s way.